Vent

Woahoaho. In order to avoid myself from breaking down, I've decided to make this blog an escape vent of all my raging emotions. By observation, my counter (:D) tells me that there's not much people visiting my blog that I conclude that it's pretty safe (at least for me) to post some personal experiences and personal stuff. Although I would be coding names and telling in a, somehow, riddle, or, oh God, just a little odd. And now, I somehow resolved an emotional turmoil, and I would want to vent it out, to share it to you...

It's just last night when I was told that a rumor about me and my past was secretly widespread over the batch. I don't know why but I flared up. My ears got red hot. I've felt it. But maybe it's because of the feeling of betrayal; because something about me that is not true is talked about behind my back. Maybe because some people would be angry at me. The effect to me was devastating. I almost didn't do my homeworks because I felt drained after about an hour of thinking about the issue. Until I woke up this morning, I can feel the heaviness of my heart, constantly hoping the world would end in a minute. But no, life proceeds and I still prepared and went to school. While preparing, I'm constantly trying to find reasons and excuses to be angry, but at my utmost common sense, I found nothing. I examined my conscience and I know I'm clean of propagating that rumor. And so, I only realized that there's nothing to be angry about. As I said, I'm clear. God forbid what they think but I know I'm clear. So at the end of the day, fortunately, I found a way to laugh it all away.

So that's it. As the title of this post, I'm releasing other thoughts that I have in mind over the past weeks.

First, I'm really, really worried and afraid that I wont be able to maintain my grade from the first quarter. I mean I'm slouching of. Oh God, don't you know what I feel and what I'm going through right now. I'll just shortly narrate to you why this is happening. It all started last year, 2nd year. I'm not saying I forsake that year but I loved it and am thankful of it. 2nd year, as they say, is the hardest year here in Philippine Science High School. Not in terms of what we studied, but the requirement load. It's proven because I experienced it myself. We had as much as 14 subjects (I think it's more) for, if my memory serves me right, 13.5 units. That year is really very hard especially on those times that requirements pile up before the periodic tests. Now, that year really released the potential of an real student in me. That year pushed me to the brink of my sane mind by constantly pumping me with pressure from requirements. That pressure was dramatically released this year. At the dawn of third year, I still had the potential. With a staggering difference in terms of requirements, the potential invested in me a very good grade for the first quarter. I slouched that quarter, what more this quarter? I'm afraid that I will be confident about those good grades that a high tendency of lazying of is very present. And I think that's already happening. Oh no!!! Oh God please help me!

I hope you understood me. That's just me, spraying words. I really don't know how to express my feelings. Sorry about that. Anyway, Expect more of these posts next time.

So Help Me God

2nd quarter is nearing its end, and as always, hell is prominent on the week before perio. But surprisingly, this quarter, hell is releasing its fury two weeks before perio, which is this week! Do you want to know what are our requirements on the upcoming days? Prepare a roll of tissue in case you're nose will bleed and beware of brain hemorrhage. So we have:

-to finish reading our required novel in English
-to memorize an elocution piece for a speech requirement, also in English
-trigonometry long test
-Filipino short story
-Filipino written report on a short story
-lab report in physics
-English game board project
-a ton of other long tests

and the list goes on...

There's absolutely nothing I can do to avoid these so instead of sitting in the corner and silently protesting, I'll just stay optimistic about these so at least I can be productive.

So I'll just cut this short because I have a ton to do. I have other things to share and vent out but I really don't have the time. There's a good probability that I won't be writing this week. So until next time!

The Philippines A Super Power?: teaser

We had our English formal them today and the question/theme is quite interesting: "What will it take to make the Philippines a superpower on the level of China?". A sarcasm; or a question out of the current obscurity of the future, I guess. you can think of it as a joke but you'll end up guffawing. There's just this sense of a string of hope amidst the carpet of dismalness. Our teacher even said that we don't even need to be serious about it because its impossible. As I won't joke around serious matter, I unconsciously wrote seriously. But anyway, I'll just share to you what I wrote but sadly, my work is with my teacher and I'm only left with an unfinished draft. I'll post the whole thing as soon as I get my back. For the mean time:

China, the Olympic Host of the 2008 Olympics, the place of the cheapest laborers, one of the highest exporting, highly industrialized countries, just recently been accepted as a major superpower.Sure it takes a hell lot of money to be like that. Before a country becomes a superpower, it first needs to have a powerful economy and an efficient industry. Can the Philippines bear that?

to be continued...

So there you go. A 1 paragraph teaser. It may be a week, or so I think, before I'll be able to retrieve my work. Just stay tuned :)

Introduction

Momentum equals what?!? "How weird", you might say about my blog URL. If you did, then I know you don't know me. Short and simply spoken, I love physics. The technicality of things always arouse my curiosity. Anyway, I made that URL because I want to make my blog a little bit cooler; well at least at a science perspective.

OK, so you can see me a little bit shallow right here. That's me, sometimes shallow, sometimes deep. You can never really predict my mood, my mind. My happiness is quite odd, I can say. Stuff that are exciting and dangerous makes me happy e.g. FIRE (how shallow is that?)!

Not only I like science and Math, but I love sports. In fact, I can play quite many of it. I play tennis, table tennis, badminton, soccer, American football, etc. It's the fact that I can play so many that I haven't mastered any-one of those. I think that's one reason why my life is out of direction right now. I still haven't set a career sport yet because of availability and financial reasons. But nevertheless, I'm happy and I'm still young so I'll enjoy all those sports first.

Overall, I'm a happy person with a bad humor. I'm Taoist in doings and ancient Greek in thought (gosh, is that possible?) . Would you believe it, I'm also slightly inclined to Confucian thought! Anyway, I can either be your best friend or your worst but loving enemy. With those short bursts of sudden thoughts about myself, may you already have an idea on what to expect on this blog!

Frankly speaking

In this opening/primer post, I'm just gonna share to you why this blog is made.

First and foremost, I made this blog for the sake of ( oh GOD!!) school requirement fulfillment. When will this end!!!! Anyway, this blog is for our Computer Science class of Web Development. This blog I'm meant to modify using the JavaScript and HTML skills, throughout this second quarter of schooling.

In case your thinking, "ahh this is just a requirement and the posts will be boring"; well, mind you, the second reason I created this blog is because I want to. I'm not a teen that does nothing but burn those fingertips on the keyboard, and does not really care about everything around him. I care. I want a blog because I want to share my views, I want at least a small part of the world to hear me, to know me, to understand me. I do things by heart so I hope I'll be able to reach to you.

Ah yes... so at last!! I have a blog. With this somekind of short kick-off message, I now announce my blog to be formally open to all readers. Enjoy reading!! ;)




Oh, by the way, additional features eg. pictures, gizmos and stuff will be updated soon. This time, it's just best to make everything bare. Trust me :)